I wish it were in my Power to give you a Just
notion of the Pleasure your Letter gave me, by comunicating
the same to your self, But since y^t is I fear impossible, Let me
Try by words, & y^e fondest assurance they can Frame, to give y^o
an Idea of w^t Passes in my Heart, when w^th the utmost delight
& Vanity it Indulges it self in the Reflection of Being yours, and
tho’ trifling in its own nature, yet while Regarded by you, Partial
to its few good Qualitys, & Blind to its Faults, It Rises in Value
My Dearest Madan! Thou ever new Delight & Joy of my Soul!
to w^t Purpose have you taught me Happiness, when it is not even
in your Power to Insure it to me, I am miserable when I
think on how many slight accidents mine Depends - & wi^th
:out apprehensions y^t w^t Tyrrel mentions of Pyms Resolution,
& may call you abroad, if so, absence every most {^^moment} tells me, there
is an End of all I ever promis’d my self, there is nothing in
this Life I can look forward on with Pleasure; but the passing
it with you, & in your Tenderness, & Love, Heightening every
Joy, & lessening every uneasiness – for in this Vexatious and
Impertinent world w^t may we not Fear? yet w^t may we not I
cheerfully support, assisted by a Dear Companion like your
self, whose conversation & Freindship has a thousand times
made me Forget my misfortunes, & Reliev’d my Heart in y^e
midst of {^^the} most Painfull Reflections: if this long, Dull, heap of
stuff, finds you in a Gay Humour, How sure am I to be
Laugh’d at? & yet as you have y^e Best Right to all my
Thoughts, I am insensibly led to trouble you with them, Just
as they Rise in my mind, Plain, & without Disguise –
[change of orientation]

I hope by this time you have rec^d my two Last, & I am justifie’d in your opinion

[damaged]

[f.114v]

me to Impute it to anything Rather then neglect, w^ch I am as incapable off as it
is Impossible you should Deserve it.
I am Very sorry to Find y^e affairs you mention are still in so unhappy a way,
and doubt as miracles are cease’d no alteration for the Better is to be Expected
your Martin is very well, & remembers you now & then by y^e endearing names of
Dear Dog, Rascall &c. Mollys Eyes have been perfectly well almost Six weeks, w^ch
give me great Hopes. I am still at Hertingfordbury, & don’t know yet when I
shall Leave it, my sister is so very pressing with me to stay: as to mentioning y^t
Vexatious accident, I think it Better let alone. I was at y^e assembly, but
Did not Like it, it only serve’d to put me in mind of some circumstances, w^ch made
y^e Best company it has insipid & tiresome to me – adieu my Dear Dear
Partner –

J Madan

Aug:^t y^e 25^t1730. you will make my Complements to Lady Stanhope, S^r W^m &c.

I wish it were in my Power to give you a Just
notion of the Pleasure your Letter gave me, by communicating
the same to your self, But since y^t is I fear impossible, Let me
Try by words, & y^e fondest assurance they can Frame, to give y^o
an Idea of w^t Passes in my Heart, when w^th the utmost delight
& Vanity it Indulges it self in the Reflection of Being yours, and
though’ trifling in its own nature, yet while Regarded by you, Partial
to its few good Qualities, & Blind to its Faults, It Rises in Value
My Dearest Madan! Thou ever new Delight & Joy of my Soul!
to w^t Purpose have you taught me Happiness, when it is not even
in your Power to Insure it to me, I am miserable when I
think on how many slight accidents mine Depends - & wi^th
:out apprehensions y^t w^t Tyrrel mentions of Pyms Resolution,
& may call you abroad, if so, absence every most {^^moment} tells me, there
is an End of all I ever promised my self, there is nothing in
this Life I can look forward on with Pleasure; but the passing
it with you, & in your Tenderness, & Love, Heightening every
Joy, & lessening every uneasiness – for in this Vexatious and
Impertinent world w^t may we not Fear? yet w^t may we not I
cheerfully support, assisted by a Dear Companion like your
self, whose conversation & Friendship has a thousand times
made me Forget my misfortunes, & Relieved my Heart in y^e
midst of {^^the} most Painful Reflections: if this long, Dull, heap of
stuff, finds you in a Gay Humour, How sure am I to be
Laughed at? & yet as you have y^e Best Right to all my
Thoughts, I am insensibly led to trouble you with them, Just
as they Rise in my mind, Plain, & without Disguise –
[change of orientation]

I hope by this time you have rec^d my two Last, & I am justified in your opinion

[damaged]

[f.114v]

me to Impute it to anything Rather then neglect, w^ch I am as incapable off as it
is Impossible you should Deserve it.
I am Very sorry to Find y^e affairs you mention are still in so unhappy a way,
and doubt as miracles are ceased no alteration for the Better is to be Expected
your Martin is very well, & remembers you now & then by y^e endearing names of
Dear Dog, Rascal &c. Molly's Eyes have been perfectly well almost Six weeks, w^ch
give me great Hopes. I am still at Hertingfordbury, & don’t know yet when I
shall Leave it, my sister is so very pressing with me to stay: as to mentioning y^t
Vexatious accident, I think it Better let alone. I was at y^e assembly, but
Did not Like it, it only served to put me in mind of some circumstances, w^ch made
y^e Best company it has insipid & tiresome to me – adieu my Dear Dear
Partner –

J Madan

Aug:^t y^e 25^t1730. you will make my Complements to Lady Stanhope, S^r W^m &c.