My Dearest soul! I saw you but yesterday, &
am writing to y^o to Day, cannot so short an absence secure y^o from my
Impertinence? If the sight of this, occasions any Reflections like these
Blame yourself, whose goodness had encourag’d me to beleive I cannot
Easly be troublesome to you – if you Imagin you have Left me, you
are very much mistaken, I do not speak to you indeed, but I see you
In your Dear Idea, w^ch is every moment Present w^th me; my
Heart wears too Livly an impression of you for any absence, or
Distance to Efface, But this impression serves only to make every
Little separation from y^e less supportable, I Hope no considera=
=tion will ever be of force sufficient to make you pronounce me
miserable, if your Love for me is as strong as mine for you, & as
Disenterested, I am sure no perswasions will have y^e effect I so much
Fear, I love you my Dear Madan! & in y^t, consists my Pride
My Happiness, & Wealth, I impatiently wish to hear if anything
is Like to promise success in y^e Grand affair, but let it happen as

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it will, I Beg, & conjure you, as you value my repose, & Life, never
Entertain a thought that even transiently consider’d, fills me w^th so
Insupportable a Dread – I need not Explain farther, nor would have
said so much, but that it is a subject I chuse rather to write then
speake off. I am as y^o Left me, as Uneasie, good for nothing creature
yet Happy in the Reflection that I am yours, you my Dearest angel!
Are in all circumstances of Body, or mind a compleat, & powerfull.
relief – I reflect on your tenderness, & Love, a thousand Dear Expressless
Instances of Both, Charitably present themselves to my memory, & flatter
me into Happiness, & Ease: I Love, you Dearest Madan! fondly, tenderly
& must to y^e Last moment of my Life, regard you above all earthly
Considerations – but I forget this was to have been a Letter of
Business, I am to tell you tis very industriously spread about amongst
the Honest Gentlemen y^r friends in this Place, y^t S^r W^m Stanhope
never intends them another viset, wagers are Laid, & the confidence
they report it with, is Like, as I am told to do great Harm – to prevent
w^ch I hope you will perswade him to one days appearance very
soon, you know I am very Zealous, as a proof of w^ch I go immediately
to M^rs Urmstones, to make two votes. don’t forget M^r Puller, to be gaind
by y^e Bishop of Salisbury – I think it now time to release you, and
therefore will only renew my request, that if you don’t come a Sunday, I
may know it by a Line, or two, I am my Dearest Creature! yours most
Entirely
J. Madan

Nov^r y^e 3^d 1726

My Dearest soul! I saw you but yesterday, &
am writing to y^o to Day, cannot so short an absence secure y^o from my
Impertinence? If the sight of this, occasions any Reflections like these
Blame yourself, whose goodness had encouraged me to believe I cannot
Easily be troublesome to you – if you Imagine you have Left me, you
are very much mistaken, I do not speak to you indeed, but I see you
In your Dear Idea, w^ch is every moment Present w^th me; my
Heart wears too Lively an impression of you for any absence, or
Distance to Efface, But this impression serves only to make every
Little separation from y^e less supportable, I Hope no considera=
=tion will ever be of force sufficient to make you pronounce me
miserable, if your Love for me is as strong as mine for you, & as
Disinterested, I am sure no persuasions will have y^e effect I so much
Fear, I love you my Dear Madan! & in y^t, consists my Pride
My Happiness, & Wealth, I impatiently wish to hear if anything
is Like to promise success in y^e Grand affair, but let it happen as

[f.94v]

it will, I Beg, & conjure you, as you value my repose, & Life, never
Entertain a thought that even transiently considered, fills me w^th so
Insupportable a Dread – I need not Explain farther, nor would have
said so much, but that it is a subject I choose rather to write then
speak off. I am as y^o Left me, as Uneasy, good for nothing creature
yet Happy in the Reflection that I am yours, you my Dearest angel!
Are in all circumstances of Body, or mind a complete, & powerful.
relief – I reflect on your tenderness, & Love, a thousand Dear Expressless
Instances of Both, Charitably present themselves to my memory, & flatter
me into Happiness, & Ease: I Love, you Dearest Madan! fondly, tenderly
& must to y^e Last moment of my Life, regard you above all earthly
Considerations – but I forget this was to have been a Letter of
Business, I am to tell you tis very industriously spread about amongst
the Honest Gentlemen y^r friends in this Place, y^t S^r W^m Stanhope
never intends them another visit, wagers are Laid, & the confidence
they report it with, is Like, as I am told to do great Harm – to prevent
w^ch I hope you will persuade him to one days appearance very
soon, you know I am very Zealous, as a proof of w^ch I go immediately
to M^rs Urmstones, to make two votes. don’t forget M^r Puller, to be gaind
by y^e Bishop of Salisbury – I think it now time to release you, and
therefore will only renew my request, that if you don’t come a Sunday, I
may know it by a Line, or two, I am my Dearest Creature! yours most
Entirely
J. Madan

Nov^r y^e 3^d 1726