Why will you accuse me, wrongfully? how
cou’d you imagine I ever harbour’d a thought of leaving
you? Should I be desirous of plunging my self into
eternal misery? Surely y^t wou’d be my state, you’ll
judge so, when I asure you, I live for you alone
believe me, my Dearest Judith, I can have, no xxx
happiness equal to y^r self. This is w^t I’ve told you
a thousand times, & w^t I’ll repeat to Eternity
how can I deserve y^r generosity, y^r Good nature, can
gratitude, be equivalent? If so, your fully paid –
you had no occasion to xx arm me, ags^t y^e possibility
of ill success, that might attend y^r Embassy, I protest
to you I’m indifferent, the sum is so trivial, y^t shou’d
M^r - make any difficulty of giving it, I shou’d make

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a greater in taking it – my chief view, in asking
of it, was to make you more easie my self {^ ^{I own}} am equally
concern’d, because I think our Interests reciprocal. I am
afraid there are some People that differ from my Sen=
=timents y^t you little think of, but they are to Judge
for themselves, as they imagine, & for every one else
M^r {?Mego} is this minute come to me, I think I have
fix’t upon the size of y^r Finger – I’ll see you at five
adieu
Y^rs Sincerely & Eternally
M Madan

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Why will you accuse me, wrongfully? how
could you imagine I ever harboured a thought of leaving
you? Should I be desirous of plunging my self into
eternal misery? Surely y^t would be my state, you’ll
judge so, when I assure you, I live for you alone
believe me, my Dearest Judith, I can have, no xxx
happiness equal to y^r self. This is w^t I’ve told you
a thousand times, & w^t I’ll repeat to Eternity
how can I deserve y^r generosity, y^r Good nature, can
gratitude, be equivalent? If so, your fully paid –
you had no occasion to xx arm me, ags^t y^e possibility
of ill success, that might attend y^r Embassy, I protest
to you I’m indifferent, the sum is so trivial, y^t should
M^r - make any difficulty of giving it, I should make

[f.12v]

a greater in taking it – my chief view, in asking
of it, was to make you more easy my self {^ ^{I own}} am equally
concerned, because I think our Interests reciprocal. I am
afraid there are some People that differ from my Sen=
=timents y^t you little think of, but they are to Judge
for themselves, as they imagine, & for every one else
M^r {?Mego} is this minute come to me, I think I have
fixed upon the size of y^r Finger – I’ll see you at five
adieu
Y^rs Sincerely & Eternally
M Madan

Thursday Morn 11 Clock