O thou Dear Object of my softest Wishes, thou kindest
Truest, Only Charmer of my Soul! Thou, whom nature surely form’d to
triumph over y^e most Insensible creature she Ever made, with w^t words shall
I Discribe y^e pain even this last short absence from thee makes me feel
you are every moment before my Eyes, I see you, & grow impatient of a
Nearer View – y^e Very Joys of freindship are grown tastless to me, some
Indeed I Esteem & Value, but tis thee Only I was Born to Love – I might add
adore, for sure no mortal ever felt so strong, so soft a Passion, mixt w^th:
so much of an awfull regard, as I at this Dear, melancholy tender
moment feel for you: nature has made you without Dispute y^e most
Desirable of your sex, nothing ever Equal’d y^e Beauty of your whole
person, your mein is as irresistable, your Wit, sence & behaviour worthy
of y^t Charming Person, but O if I know my own heart, I did not give
up my liberty to any of these takeing Qualifications, no it was y^e
soft, winning turn of your Disposition, y^e justness & Generosity of your
sentiments, your unaffected love, & disintested Passion for me, gratitude, to
y^t passion your Every word, & action told me was sincere, made me take
a nearer View of your other perfections, I consider’d y^e man I was so much
oblidg’d to, & looking with gratefull Eyes on the freind, how soon was I
surpriz’s & conquer’d by y^e Lover – fate is certainly in this, I feel something

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so infinitly above all y^e low Ideas I have hitherto conceiv’d of Love, that I
want a new name, to Express y^e warmth, y^e freindship, y^e admiration, y^e
shore then, Love with w^ch: I am yours – O then receive y^e Heart you Say
you Value, receive my self, I give you all my Inclinations, Direct me,
I put my {^^Self} into your power, I abandon my Self intirely to y^e soft, y^e
Irressitable passion you first made me know. I could write to you for=
ever, but I ought to consider tis possible your patience of reading, may
not hold out so long, & therefore I will force my self to add only ye
assurance on my Being to y^e last moment of my life
Entirely Yours
JC

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Never to be sent.
1723

O thou Dear Object of my softest Wishes, thou kindest
Truest, Only Charmer of my Soul! Thou, whom nature surely formed to
triumph over y^e most Insensible creature she Ever made, with w^t words shall
I Describe y^e pain even this last short absence from thee makes me feel
you are every moment before my Eyes, I see you, & grow impatient of a
Nearer View – y^e Very Joys of friendship are grown tasteless to me, some
Indeed I Esteem & Value, but tis thee Only I was Born to Love – I might add
adore, for sure no mortal ever felt so strong, so soft a Passion, mixt w^th:
so much of an awful regard, as I at this Dear, melancholy tender
moment feel for you: nature has made you without Dispute y^e most
Desirable of your sex, nothing ever Equalled y^e Beauty of your whole
person, your mien is as irresistible, your Wit, sense & behaviour worthy
of y^t Charming Person, but O if I know my own heart, I did not give
up my liberty to any of these taking Qualifications, no it was y^e
soft, winning turn of your Disposition, y^e justness & Generosity of your
sentiments, your unaffected love, & disinterested Passion for me, gratitude, to
y^t passion your Every word, & action told me was sincere, made me take
a nearer View of your other perfections, I considered y^e man I was so much
obliged to, & looking with grateful Eyes on the friend, how soon was I
surprized & conquered by y^e Lover – fate is certainly in this, I feel something

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so infinitely above all y^e low Ideas I have hitherto conceived of Love, that I
want a new name, to Express y^e warmth, y^e friendship, y^e admiration, y^e
shore then, Love with w^ch: I am yours – O then receive y^e Heart you Say
you Value, receive my self, I give you all my Inclinations, Direct me,
I put my {^^Self} into your power, I abandon my Self entirely to y^e soft, y^e
Irresistible passion you first made me know. I could write to you for=
ever, but I ought to consider tis possible your patience of reading, may
not hold out so long, & therefore I will force my self to add only ye
assurance on my Being to y^e last moment of my life
Entirely Yours
JC

[f.3]

Never to be sent.
1723