1023 - Judith Madan to Martin Madan, 31 October 1736
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Delight – I am more then ever sensible of yr goodness & transport
=ed wth my own Happiness – The Possession of such a Heart as
yours is a Blessing infinnitly more Dear to me than the Life I
Devote to you – I can never repine that all Joys are –
Tastless without you - & that when wth you I am lost, & Dead,
to all but your self – tis but Just I should be all yrs & did
I Pretend to Love you & Reserve the Least inclination for anything {^else}
I should be unworthy the Least of those Dear assurances yr Last
Brought me. How often! How Eagerly! Have I injoy’d that
Welcome Transcript of your Soul – I wear it wth a kind of
Religious Superstition at my Heart. a Powerfull charm! to
Drive away every anxious thought, & even of Force sufficient
to lessen, (or at least enable me to support) all the Horrors of
absence!
Why do you Remind me of moments I cant reflect on wthout
too sensibly feeling my prest condition, wch Deprives me of all
but their Dear Idea, That with a force I cannot, & indeed would
not, resist, Faithfully accompanys all my Days in wch I think, &
my nights in wch I am sometimes blest enough to Dream of you –
wt is Life, & all its waking Joys wthout you, to This! you bid
me tell you my most secret thoughts, wth wt Pleasure would I
obey yr
[f.145v]
commands were it possible for me to find expressions that
would come up to the tenderness of my Heart – no language but its
own can do Justice to wt it feels for you – my sighs – my silence
may perhaps, sometimes, speak more powerfully then a thousand
Tongues – from thence Judge of my excess of Passion – only
ye smallest emotions of the Heart are subject to expression, a
Joy that can be told, is as much Below my sence of Bliss – as
the Bliss you Bestow, is above all expression –
I am call’d away, my Dear, Dear, Life I or could not yet,
leave so pleasing a subject – but I must bid you adiue!
I send
My arms – My Heart! will receive you wth Transport
JM
all Here send their complements
Ethrope Oct 31st 1736
I could not forbear sending you the inclos’d
Being the work of an Eminent hand – you will
I Dare say tell me who, in your next as ye
Ease of the Numbers, & the Beauty of the thought
cannot but distinguish the author.
Delight – I am more then ever sensible of yr goodness & transport
=ed wth my own Happiness – The Possession of such a Heart as
yours is a Blessing infinitely more Dear to me than the Life I
Devote to you – I can never repine that all Joys are –
Tasteless without you - & that when wth you I am lost, & Dead,
to all but your self – tis but Just I should be all yrs & did
I Pretend to Love you & Reserve the Least inclination for anything {^else}
I should be unworthy the Least of those Dear assurances yr Last
Brought me. How often! How Eagerly! Have I enjoyed that
Welcome Transcript of your Soul – I wear it wth a kind of
Religious Superstition at my Heart. a Powerful charm! to
Drive away every anxious thought, & even of Force sufficient
to lessen, (or at least enable me to support) all the Horrors of
absence!
Why do you Remind me of moments I cant reflect on wthout
too sensibly feeling my prest condition, wch Deprives me of all
but their Dear Idea, That with a force I cannot, & indeed would
not, resist, Faithfully accompanies all my Days in wch I think, &
my nights in wch I am sometimes blest enough to Dream of you –
wt is Life, & all its waking Joys wthout you, to This! you bid
me tell you my most secret thoughts, wth wt Pleasure would I
obey yr
[f.145v]
commands were it possible for me to find expressions that
would come up to the tenderness of my Heart – no language but its
own can do Justice to wt it feels for you – my sighs – my silence
may perhaps, sometimes, speak more powerfully then a thousand
Tongues – from thence Judge of my excess of Passion – only
ye smallest emotions of the Heart are subject to expression, a
Joy that can be told, is as much Below my sense of Bliss – as
the Bliss you Bestow, is above all expression –
I am called away, my Dear, Dear, Life I or could not yet,
leave so pleasing a subject – but I must bid you adieu!
I send
My arms – My Heart! will receive you wth Transport
JM
all Here send their complements
Ethrope Oct 31st 1736
I could not forbear sending you the enclosed
Being the work of an Eminent hand – you will
I Dare say tell me who, in your next as ye
Ease of the Numbers, & the Beauty of the thought
cannot but distinguish the author.
Judith Madan to Martin Madan, 31 October 1736
Martin’s letter brought her great happiness. Possessing his heart is her greatest joy in life. She describes his letters as the transcripts of his soul, which she wears upon her own heart like a talisman, and which helps relieve her anxious thoughts. Sometimes at night she is fortunate enough to dream of him. She sends her love with the letter, and her arms and heart look forward to receiving him.
Madan Family
Eng Letter C.284 f.145
Bodleian Libraries, University of Oxford
1736
10
31
Ethrope [Buckinghamshire, England]
[England]
primary author
- arm
- heart
- sleeping
- talking
- thinking
separation
- feeling
- happy
- love (romantic)
- low
- worried
- memory
- mind
- personal blessings
- thought
marriage
primary addressee
writing
separation
- feeling
- love (romantic)
- disposition
- soul
marriage
To Cite this Letter
Judith Madan to Martin Madan, 31 October 1736, 31101736: Bodleian Libraries, University of Oxford, Madan Family, Eng Letter C.284 f.145
To Cite this Edition
Material Identities, Social Bodies: Embodiment in British Letters c.1680-1820. Compiled by: Karen Harvey, Helen Esfandiary, Sarah Fox, Emily Vine, University of Birmingham. Project funded by the Leverhulme Trust (2021-2025, Ref. RPG-2020-163), https://socialbodies.bham.ac.uk.